This Is My Promise To You

As much as I believe in what my heart has shown me, I do not really know what the future holds. I do know some things though, beyond a shadow of a doubt. I know you. I know how I feel about you and I know how I feel about us. I have known these things since the very second I laid eyes on you, and I know that sounds like a disgusting cliché, but it is very much the truth, and you know this. Because I know you, and despite all this noise and chaos, I know there are things you may need that only I can give you.

So this is my promise to you.

There will be a time when you need me, even though you won’t think you deserve my support. You will fight yourself for wanting to lean on me once more, despite knowing that the severity of the situation demands me.

I promise to carry the load with you when you are ready to share it.

There will be a day when you do not understand how any of this happened. You will look at yourself and you will be furious, because you are always too hard on yourself.

I promise to let you look into my mirror so that you can see what I see.

There will be a day when you look up and realize that you are lost. You will try to read all the maps yourself, because you are stubborn. You will remember that I told you I would always stand still for you.

I promise to never move so that you can always find me.

There will be a day when you come to me for forgiveness. You might want it right now, and we both know I could give it to you, but you will not ask me. You will not come to me with anything less than your bare self.

I promise to forgive you when you are ready to be forgiven.

There will be a day when you want my love. You will come to me and say that you are ready, and that you are sorry for making me wait so long. You will say that you have wasted so much time that we could have spent together.

I promise that I have stopped clock for us.

Maybe there will be a day when you are ready, but not for me. You will remember how I was a part of your story, and you will smile when you think of us. But you will make promises with someone.

I promise that I really did love you, wildly, and that I won’t be able to love anyone the same again.

I promise to let you go if that’s what you want.

And I promise to hold you in my heart forever.