Kristen Stewart Says She Was a “Pretentious Little Loser” Making Twilight, Always Trying to Make It “So So Serious.”

Kristen Stewart is looking back on the franchise that made her a star — and she’s not pulling any punches about the version of herself who made it.

Speaking on the August 14 episode of the podcast In Your Dreams With Owen Thiele, the actress reflected on Twilight almost 18 years after the first film, describing a teenage performer who took the vampire romance far too seriously.

She and Robert Pattinson approached the movies like they needed rescuing. “Me and Rob were like, ‘Yeah, this is like f–king [everything]. Let’s try and elevate this s–t,'” she recalled. “And it’s like, just be exactly what age you are and say the words.”

At the time, she said, being asked to view the movies “from the outside” simply wasn’t possible yet. Five movies over five years, and the conversation never stopped.

Now 36, Stewart reads that teenage intensity differently. “God, I just wanted to be like f–king real. And it’s impossible. Everyone’s making it f–king impossible for it to be like f–king real,” she said of how she felt back then.

Distance, though, changed the verdict. What they were doing “was f–king real,” she said — and also “kind of campy and sick.” As she put it, the excess was the point: “Anything too much is so perfect for that period of time, where you’re not going to do subtle stuff when you’re, like, a teenager dying.”

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