I Am Tired Of Temporary Love

I am tired of texting back and forth for weeks and never meeting up in person.

I am tired of first dates that never lead to seconds.

I am tired of acting as someone’s almost and never taking the next step into a relationship.

I am tired of temporary love beginning and ending in a flash.

I am not interested in being a one-night stand. A friend with benefits. A casual hookup.

I want a serious relationship. I want to build something that has the ability to last a lifetime.

I want to find someone who is willing to commit. Someone who refuses to run away, even when things get hard. Someone who will stick it out through the bad times so we can get back to the good times.

I don’t want to waste my time with someone for weeks, maybe even months, if they aren’t interested in the same future as I have been imagining. I don’t want to grow attached to someone and realize at the last second they aren’t looking for anything serious.

I am not searching for temporary. I am searching for forever.

Modern dating has exhausted me, because it seems like everywhere I turn, others are only looking to have fun. To lose themselves in the moment without worrying about what is going to come next.

Meanwhile, I am searching for someone who has the potential to become more than a fling. Someone I want around for more than one night. Someone I can imagine keeping around for years to come.

I don’t want to invite someone into my bedroom and kick them out once the sun rises. I don’t want to get to know them halfway. I want to see every side of them — and I want them to want me to see it.

I want them to be as enthusiastic about me as I am about them. I don’t want to be the one who cares more. I don’t want to be holding onto our relationship by a hair while they’re struggling to set themselves free. I want someone who is on the same page as me. Someone who can’t wait to begin our love story.

I want someone who is going to tell their friends about me. Someone who is going to set aside time to see me each week. Someone who is going to ask me to be their plus-one at weddings.

I am sick of temporary love. I don’t want someone attractive to text until someone better comes along. I don’t want to keep swapping out people when I grow bored.

I want one relationship. One person. A person who means more to me than all the others. A person who is worth settling down with, because they give me as much as I give them, both spiritually and emotionally.

I want a forever love. I want to commit myself to someone who would never dream of leaving me. Someone who means it when they say they are going to stay.