No Motherfucker Steals My Sparkle

And they show up
at the same time
like jingles from the universe
are you sure you don’t want an unavailable one?
here’s a few you’ve bitten into
and they slim and slimmer
across my path
are you still in a relationship?
that’s hard to answer
or some other vague complicated bullshit response that leaves space for hope
hope that he’ll leave and make space for us
horse shit
you know what will happen
I’ll invest 6 months of energy and time
and then he will play his cards
and if he’s dipping his fingers in more than one heart
he isn’t in the market for one
it will just end the way it began
looking over his shoulder
and you’ll be looking over yours
because the other woman is never the woman
and luckily I know better than to be the other woman
even energetically
I say no
and he goes
wait
wait
let’s just be friends
plutonic
and I say
horse shit you want to be my plutonic friend
grey
grey
grey
wait
wait
I just want to see you
it’s been a while
you’re really living
I want some of what you’re taking
fingers pulling at me as I’m already walking away
great
so
you’re not available
and you want to steal my sparkle
no mother fucker steals my sparkle

This goes out to the unavailable men
who throw fishing hooks into women with stars in their eyes
who listen to their horse shit
and believe

The only thing they should believe is that you do not deserve to see the bottom of her leather boots as she walks out the room

If you toy with a woman’s heart
and her mind
you’re just as good as the women who know and believe anyway
and I’m done believing anyway

And why do we attract the unavailable ones
with horseshit in their teeth?
because we have horse shit in our teeth
and our hearts have spots of fear for the secure love
the loving love
the love that grabs you in the night
with all its might

No
that love is boring
black socks in the dryer
we would rather fall in love with assholes who leave us victims
then look at the asshole part of our hearts that are afraid
and settle them
so we can settle into a love that is kind.

Janne Robinson is a poet and author of
This Is For The Women Who Don’t Give A Fuck.
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