I Don’t Regret You, First Love

Loving you was worth the risk.

My entire life, my heart was guarded tightly, causing me to forget how to let anyone get close to me. I became convinced that I couldn’t be in relationships because there was never one that could possibly work out for me. I was in denial about ever meeting the right person.

But you made it so easy to open my heart to you.

You taught me how to trust in love.

You helped me realize that just because love had failed me in the past doesn’t mean it will continue to. You helped me learn to rest my negative emotions and not to let them get to me. I could be comfortable in my own skin being around you because you accepted me for me, despite all my flaws and insecurities. I could feel like myself with your endless support for me to become my true self.

With you, there were no games to be caught up in or confusing mixed signals to dissect. We were together because we wanted to be. There was never a moment of doubt in our relationship that we weren’t in it together.

You were worth every risk and I fell in love with you.

I’m not sure how you did it, but I became completely whipped with you. I admired the way your eyes would light up when they connected with mine. I became addicted to the rush of adrenaline when you would put your arm around me and pull me closer to you. You made me believe that you were different and till today, you have given me no reason to think otherwise.

I had never met someone like you, someone so patient with me and loved me with your full heart.

You’ve taught me that love is kind and patient, even when you don’t see eye to eye. You helped me realize that when you love someone, you won’t ever raise your voice towards them or send any hateful words to them. When one person turns away, hug each other tighter and break down the wall between one another.

With you, I gained the opportunity to finally get a glimpse of love. You were my risk and worth every bit of it. I have no regret loving you.