Richard Grayson

Sharon looked really well for a girl who’d had a very difficult Caesarean childbirth the day before. With her red hair, freckles, dressed in a pink nightgown, she looked positively beautiful.

I feel very sensual on beaches, but Ronna is a bit leery about public embraces. Still, with the hot sun and everyone walking around half-nude, one can’t help thinking of sex.

Scott struck up a conversation with a girl who turned out to be a model who poses nude for confession magazines. That night they saw “Last Tango”; the next, he slept over her house. But he says she’s slow-moving and he thinks she’s a down freak.

A young guy about 18 said, “You two sound married.” Just then Jerry was walking down the steps next to us and he said to the kid, “Can’t you see they look too happy together to be married?”

I told her I was hurt that she takes my hand away from her crotch when I put it inside her pants and that she never touches my penis. It’s something I’d been thinking for a while and it felt good to finally verbalize it.

Though Susan keeps telling Ronna that we’ll get married, we both know that will never happen. But relationships don’t have to permanent to be successful, do they?

Vito kissed me hello, then asked, “Do you ever feel embarrassed by me?” No, I told him, pretty much honestly.

Last night with Mrs. Ehrlich, I realized that I like to be busy all the time and to have things structured, so I won’t have time to think. I suppose I’ve been having sexual feelings and fantasies that are disturbing to me.

My graduation’s on June 5, one day after I turn 22. Looking over the form to send away for tickets, Mom said, “I’d never have thought you could do it – not after that first day.”

In the car, Costas said he was talking to Melvin the other day about how Ronna and I were “a perfect couple”; that’s not true, but it’s nice that people see us that way.

Stacy said I “performed like a good masculine specimen,” whatever that means, and kissed me on the forehead, leaving me to close up her office, as she had to meet another subject for her experiment.

Elspeth was visibly upset; I think she’s afraid – once again – that she’s pregnant. As Scott said, “Three strikes and you’re out.” Does she keep doing this to get the attention?