Rania Naim

Virgo. They’ll come back as a ‘friend’ first. They’ll try to slowly make their way back into your life by being supportive and there for you when you need them.

I’ll find your texts to read the emptiness in your words, to remember how unexcited you were about me and about us. I’ll find them so I can read the broken promises over and over again and remember how you never really followed through and how you probably never intended to.

“No effort. If there’s no effort, there’s no relationship. Trust me on this one, men make the effort when they want someone. They don’t get lazy.”

Maybe you scare them because you don’t know how to wait. You take yourself out of the equation when there is more than one. You don’t try to compete for someone’s attention if they’re not giving it to you freely and you don’t try to force someone to see who you are or who you could be.

We say goodbye shortly after we say hello. We say goodbye before we get to know them. We say goodbye before we understand them and we say goodbye without even hearing what they have to say or how they feel.

Asking them to be ‘chill’ or ‘cool’ is like asking a flower to bloom in the middle of winter.

I realized that people only like you when you’re happy and light not when you’re sad and heavy. I realized that people only want you when you’re fun and loud not when you’re down and quiet.

You remember that you were fine before they entered your life, you remember who you were before they approached you, you remember that you’ve moved on before and that you have a life waiting for you outside of them.

Maybe you need to take a few steps back instead of taking a huge leap of faith. Maybe you need to stop chasing people and let them chase you instead. Let them find you. Let them choose you. Let them get your attention first instead of giving them yours right away.

I’m tired of being a victim of my own expectations, of my own intuition, of my own radar. I’m tired of being the one who is always left disappointed or shocked or baffled by someone’s behavior. I’m tired of being the one who’s always hurting.

But I want you to know that I could’ve tried to be everything you ever wanted but that would be a happy ending and you got used to sad ones.

I still look for you in everyone else. My heart still looks for you in everyone else. I still wish it was you every time. I still think it’s going to be you one of those days.

Thank you for being there. Thank you for being present. Thank you for being the ones who stay in a world where everyone leaves.

The difference between you and her is that you’re scared of what might happen if it doesn’t work out and she’s cared of what might happen if she lets you go. You’re scared of staying and she’s scared of leaving.

Do not let your loneliness be the reason behind your misery. Let it empower you to become someone you never thought you’d be. Someone who stands alone, someone who doesn’t need validation, someone who doesn’t need noise.

Or maybe he’s making you wait because the more you wait, the more you’ll appreciate what you’re going to get. The longer you wait, the longer you’ll keep what he’s going to give you.

She lost interest because she realized you’re not ready. You’re not ready for a relationship, you’re not ready for something real. You’re still into casual dating, you’re into things that are fleeting, things you can easily end and people who don’t know how to love.

I’m sorry I wanted to love you like you’ve never been loved.