Rania Naim

One-sided love is not love. It’s torture. It’s waiting for something that might never happen. It’s looking at someone who doesn’t see you. It’s thinking about someone day and night while you probably never cross their mind.

They want answers immediately. They love saying how they feel. They don’t really think twice about what they say and how they say it and when they try to push others to do the same, it kind of pushes them away.

I don’t want to be with someone who makes me question myself. Asking myself why he didn’t text, why he’s not following up, was it something I said or was it something I did?

We’ve forgotten how to plant the seeds yet we want a whole garden. We’ve forgotten that the basic and simplest first step to finding love is staying.

Virgo. You’re a perfectionist and you don’t make any hasty decisions, especially when it comes to your love life. So when something doesn’t work out after all the time and effort you invested in it, it becomes like a lost business deal to you and you try to so hard to revive it or find a way to make it a huge success again.

I’m done fearing losing you by letting you get away with everything that hurts me, everything I’ll never do to you.

This is what happens when the girl who hoped for more is broken, when she feels stupid for choosing to love someone who never wanted to love her back.

Maybe all I need right now is me because I need to work on the relationship with myself. To fix the years I tormented myself. To mend the broken pieces. To reshape myself. To redeem myself.

As long as you’re with the wrong people, nothing you do will ever be completely right. As long as you’re with the right people, nothing you do will ever be completely wrong.

It hurts to see you give her what I always wanted from you.

But then I realized that with people who will never understand your words, silence is the best response. Silence is the loudest response.

You’re never going to be the person who makes me feel like I’m enough because you’ll always be looking for something else, curious about someone else because you’ll always think you can do better. You’ll never think I’m the best.

It’s time to stop falling and start standing. It’s time to get back up and keep walking. It’s time to heal.

You eliminate the ones who are not on the same page. When you’re honest with yourself about what you’re looking for; whether you’re looking for something casual or serious, you become more aware of the types of relationships you get yourself into. You will not string someone along if they’re looking for something more and you won’t stick around when someone is not ready if you’re the one wanting more.

It’s tired. It’s tired of heartbreak. It’s tired of bruises and scratches, it’s tired of temporary homes, it’s tired of short vacations, it’s tired of ending things and losing people. It’s just tired. It needs a home. It needs life. It needs security.

Please forgive me, one more time for letting you go, for not coming back sooner, for not knowing that I had everything when I had you.

Even when the universe aligned and everything around us was right and perfect and all we needed was just to say yes to the universe and say yes to love. You said no. You backed out. You left.

You see the world in black and white because you can’t be in the middle, you can’t settle for grey, you don’t know how to half-feel, half-love or half-live. You’re either all in or all out. You either give your all or you feel empty all the time.