This Is How I Want You To Remember Me

I want you to remember me when the world gets cold, when you can’t catch your breath from the weight of the burdens and chores that you are carrying on your shoulders. I want you to remember my warmth and how it took some of the weight away.

I want you to remember me when you are feeling down and anxious, when you can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I want you to remember my naïve optimism and the paragraphs I used to send you about how wonderful life could be and how wonderful you are. I want you to remember how unrealistic I was but it somehow made you feel better.

I want you to remember me when you are doubting yourself, when you are unsure if you can achieve something. I want you to remember how I believed in you and the potential I saw in you. I want you to remember that I said you were destined for greatness. I want you to remember that I always thought you were strong and determined.

I want you to remember me when you are dancing, I want you to remember how much I loved to dance and how I would force you to keep up with me. I want you to remember how you acted like you hated it but you secretly loved it. I want you to remember that our short time together was exactly like a dance; liberating, intimate, fun and hypnotic.

I want you to remember me when you are walking alone in the city, when it’s quiet at night. I want you to remember the conversations we had in every corner and the laughter that echoed between the walls. I want you to remember how easy it was to open up to each other and how it felt like we are the only two people in the world who could truly understand each other. I want you to remember the way we looked at each other and how the moon was looking at us – witnessing the birth of a new love story.

I want you to remember me when you are taking pictures, and how I forced you to take too many of them. I want you to remember the goofy faces and the silly poses and the awkward smiles, and I want you to remember the sweet ones, the ones that captured the beautiful memories, the ones that captured the unforgettable experiences we had together. I want you to remember the smile on my face when I was next to you and the moment we both knew this was something special.

I want you to remember me when you read a poem, I want you to remember my words; how they touched you, how they made you feel, how they described you when you couldn’t even describe yourself and how they built you up when you were tearing yourself down. I want you to remember how my words brought you closer and how they made you fall in love with me. I want you to remember how my sentences completed yours and how my words filled up your silence and slowly pulled you away from your solitude.

I want you to remember me and smile. I want you to remember me and feel like it wasn’t one of those sad endings. I want you to remember that even the ending was sweet. That the ending was inevitable but it was worth it. I want you to remember that for the first time you don’t have to force yourself to forget someone, you don’t have to forget about your feelings or your memories. That my name doesn’t hurt when you hear it, that my pictures don’t make you cringe when you see them. I want you to remember me as the first person that proved to you that lost love is not completely lost, that we sometimes meet wonderful people who are not meant to stay forever and that some people will always hold a special place in our hearts because we want to keep them there.

This is how I want you to remember me, because this is exactly how I remember you.