Nikita Gill

Truly creative people do not take to public mediums to belittle the work of other artists. They channel that energy into creating art. If you do not like something, you move past it. This is out of mutual respect and creative energy of another artist.

I took this interesting lesson from watching my cats’ behaviour for a day. They are always happy, because they live in the moment. Their biggest concern is where their next meal comes from, which is usually in their bowls same time everyday. Now I recognise as humans it is so hard to live like this, but think of it this way, that thing you’re worrying about? It’s not going to go away because you’re worrying about it.

Alone and lonely are two different things. Alone means nights with my books. Alone means quiet star gazing and drinking tea drinking on my roof. Alone means hours of self aware retrospection in a coffee shop whilst scribbling poetry. But most importantly alone means not wilting into the arms of a man who may not appreciate the stars and poetry.

Never forget that little sparkle, that little child you have on the inside.

Falling out of love happens to the best of us, but the right person would not be able to fall out of love with you when you are still loving them with everything that is inside you.

That I loved myself enough to leave you, the  you that balled hands into fists and abandoned me often when I needed you the most, I will always be proud that I left you. But the fact that I had taken four years to recognise the real you, the part of you that knew the exact and insidious way to use my trauma  against me still makes me so angry at myself.

Hello. My name is Hollow. I live inside your soul. Under the layers and layers of skin, and tissue and muscle… all the way down where nothing and everything survives.

People’s actions are their own. We are all responsible for the way we behave with others. And the easy way out is to say “She provoked me, or he caused me to act like a horrible person.” No. We all have a choice. And the people who broke you had a choice too.

If you find yourself unable to sleep because your heart is thumping, your brain won’t shut off, all you can think of is the negative, your whole body feels like it’s one giant ball of unhappiness, find an audio book, a soft soothing one to listen to.

In a world where everything has a price tag attached, you are a real thing that expects nothing in return. And that is suspicious to people who do not know how to give out pure love without expecting anything back.

1. Because they say that for every single boy who counts the stars, there is a little girl who is wishing upon one.

Wake up a bit earlier everyday. From 8, make it 7, from 7 make it 6.

It’s not hard to make her feel appreciated. She doesn’t expect much, she expects you to be faithful and to show interest in her. And the little things you do mean so much more than grand gestures ever could.

As an anxious person, there is nothing worse than trying to get in touch with someone and them not answering or getting back to you when you need them to. As your brain slowly starts to disintegrate, illogical thoughts merge together and several things go wrong at once. By the time the end of the day comes around, you have convinced yourself that either you are unwanted or the worst has happened.

Let me tell you a secret: As long as you are trying, you are doing just fine.

You will accept yourself by allowing yourself to breathe in the moments you feel like you are falling apart. You will accept yourself by not beating yourself up when you do something wrong, instead look to what you can do to fix it. You will accept yourself by feeding yourself self love when rejection has struck you the hardest.

When the world has torn into you and left your kindness in shreds, when the unfairness of the world itself gets to you, I need you to remember this. You are needed.

These are the things I need to let go of about you. The conversations we had. The moments I genuinely believed were true.