Nikita Gill

I want you to know this. YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY.

In 2018, I hope you learn how to be alone. Better yet, I hope you learn to love being alone. There is a big difference between alone and lonely, and I hope you find that being alone is a brilliant opportunity to grow and do things that you found you could never do in a relationship. 

If you are suffering right now and struggling to find the light at the end of the tunnel, I promise you, you have saved yourself every time before and you WILL survive this.

I tried to learn how to live with it, but pain makes a terrible bedfellow. It keeps you up at night, never allowing you to sleep. Eventually, it colours all of your life in shades so dark that you forget how to breathe.

So, love dangerously. Throw all your hang ups out of the window. Let them see your flaws without being hyper anxious about letting them see the real you. Allow love to happen to you.

Enough almost relationships. Enough jobs that just get you by. Enough putting off chasing your dreams. All of that ends this year because next year is the year you find your bliss. 

This is a time for some deep introspection and talking to yourself. Have you been living your truth. Is there someone you should make amends with. Have you been too harsh on someone. Are you truly happy with the life you are living right now?

The way you deal with your pain in a moment of trauma is not a direct reflection on your strength.

They don’t fall in love, they walk in with both eyes open.

Something hammered inside my blood that was like a song. Something sang beneath my skin with urgency reminding me who I was. Something told me that what I am, I could never give up. 

The truth is, the only person you need liking you is you.

If you’ve had a bad day or a great one, if you’ve achieved a high accomplishment or the world has been unjust, you are allowed your feelings about it. If they are invalidating your feelings and making you feel small, they aren’t nurturing your spirit and they’re making you believe how you feel is something you must apologise for.

Treat yourself to no internet days. The world is literally on fire right now. Everything feels like it is burning and we are processing human suffering everyday via social media that no human is supposed to process on this scale. So do yourself a favour, switch off your computer, switch off your phone and take a walk outside in the fresh air.

He’s possessive because he cares, I gritted my teeth through it. He shouts at me because he wants me the best I can be, I convinced myself. Around 60 percent of the time you were amazing anyway, what did it matter that you struggled to be perfect the other 40? I could live with that, I told myself. I could live with that.

Except I couldn’t.

You are the direct result of approximately 4 billion years of unbroken lineage all the way from single celled organisms. Remember this when you feel invalid. It took 4 billion years to make you for this very moment. Your existence has meaning.

Interestingly, it’s your fist hitting me that made me realise how many lies you had been feeding me.

She will burn every bridge that has your name on it, watch the flames kiss the wood so she never has to the cross the river back to you.

It is human nature to reach the point of no return and recognise that the only way out of the sadness, the pain, the heartache is to move forward in a different direction from where you were moving before.