Natalie Esarey
Dog mom | B (EA) U (T) Y | Keep fighting the good fight |
To Everyone Who Promised They Would Never Leave And Then Did
After the time I spent alone, and the time I spent healing and rebuilding myself—I am left with one belief stronger than everything that’s happened. I believe that despite all odds that say otherwise, that people are inherently good.
All The Things The Scale Won’t Tell You
It won’t tell you the way your eyes light up when you talk about the things you love. It won’t tell you that your laugh is a noise that makes the rest of us not feel so alone. You’ll never be told your worth.
When You Finally Let Go And Welcome God, Everything Will Come Together
We must be patient, and be trusting, for God has a plan for each one of us. So as hard as it is to put our humanly agendas to the side, and focus all our energy into God, it’s the only way to the feeling of complete love that we so desperately crave.
Love Is Louder Than My Eating Disorder
My eating disorder is unrelenting, terrible, and LOUD. It’s so loud that even if you want to hear truth and even if you want to break free, you cannot hear anything anyone is trying to tell you because you are drowning in the shrieks of its anger.
A Random Act Of Kindness Gave Me My Best Friend And Saved My Life
We became best friends in what felt like an instant. I loved her with my whole heart, and I know full well that she loved me with all of hers. I promised her that I was not just going to keep getting help while she was alive, but that I would continue to fight once she was gone.
Here’s Why Dieting Isn’t Going To Help You Feel Better About Yourself
As a recovering hard-core dieter turned bulimic, and then turned anorexic, I feel fairly qualified to speak about the diet industry. I’ve been overweight, I’ve been underweight, and I’ve been everywhere in between. Dieting won’t work.
I Feared Abandonment, And That’s Exactly What I Got
It’s funny isn’t it? How the one thing we fear most in this world, that we try desperately with all we have to avoid, tends to be the one thing that never fails to come our way?
If You’re Looking For A Sign Of Hope, This Is It
The truth is, you are stronger than all of this. You’re smarter than your demons.
I Didn’t Believe In God Until I Heard This Weird Message On The Radio
On August 13, 2016, my life changed forever. Actually, my life began. I was reborn. Only nine months prior, I had just gotten out of my fifth treatment center. And now, finally, I was truly happy.
Mental Illness Is Not A Choice — But Recovery Is
Choosing recovery doesn’t necessarily mean you will be cured, or never struggle again, but what it does mean is that you are making the conscious decision to fight. To not be a victim. To walk in the light of life, instead of in the shadows of darkness of death.
If You Could See Yourself Through My Eyes, You’d Never Doubt Your Beauty Again
You’re the one with enough life in you to take something unseen and give it a face.
What My Dad Never Taught Me About Love
My dad didn’t teach me that love is patient, and love is kind. He didn’t teach me that love is beautiful, or that the power of love is more powerful than anything else on this earth. The picture of love I had painted in my head was that love was made to be painful, it was full of loss, and it was destructive.