I Love You, But I’m Too Scared To Say The Words

I can't help but love you — but my brain tells me not to say it just yet.

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We’ve been a part of each other’s lives for quite a while, but the stars just recently aligned for us to become something more than friends. You mean the world to me, and I would do anything to freeze this picture-perfect moment where we’re finally able to caress each other and explore what we’ve both been dreaming of for eternity.

When I fall in love, it happens quickly, and it happens hard. But I know from past experiences that love doesn’t work this way for everyone. So instead of confessing how I feel for you, I keep telling myself to stuff it deep down inside of me and never let it go.

I can’t help but love you — but my brain tells me not to say it just yet.

I lie awake for hours, replaying every moment of our time together in my head. I hold onto you as you fall asleep, cherishing the moment I hope will never end. My thoughts race as three little words find their way to the tip of my tongue, yet I just can’t find a way to tell you how I feel.

I know exactly what I’m feeling, but something inside of me keeps saying it’s too soon to tell you what I feel because you may run away in fear. What if it’s too soon? Given the way I feel, I don’t want to ruin it all with three silly words.

I love you so much I feel it in my bones, but I worry that telling you this would ruin what we have.

We wake up next to each other, then take a moment to just hold hands while we talk about everything and nothing all at once. We share our innermost desires, and I start daydreaming of the future life we could build together. I want to share my life with you entirely, both the good parts and the bad.

Yet no matter how amazing this all feels, I’m terrified to confess my love and give you any kind of power over me. I worry about you breaking my heart, a heart that I was foolish enough to give. Yet I keep giving you pieces of it anyway, and this confession is no different.

My feelings for you grow with every breath I take, and it scares me beyond belief. I know I’m falling for you, and no matter how hard I try, I can’t fight it or even slow it down.

The truth is, I love you… but I’m too scared to say the words.