Is He Even Worth It?

Is he even worth it?

When as soon as you wake up, your mind quickly wanders to him and all the could have beens.

Is he even worth it?

When at night your hopes are sky high waiting for a call or even a message that you’ll probably never receive.

Is he even worth it?

When you lent him your ears listening to all his dreams and he forgot about yours.

Is he even worth it?

When he never remembered your birthday, let alone asked you how you had been on any other day.

Is he even worth it?

When most of your time was spent worrying where you stood in his life, not really sure if you even had a place in it.

Is he even worth it?

When all the times he made you feel that you’re just a shortstop, his last hurrah… until he’s ready for the real thing, until someone better comes along.

Is he even worth it?

When he lost interest in you and didn’t think twice of dropping you out of his life to go after her, exactly who he wanted.

Is he even worth it?

When all you could do is take in all the pain as he abandoned you entirely, not even bothered how you’ll put yourself back together.

Is he even worth it?

When he showed off images of her like the adorable boyfriend he had always been, while you still look at them trying to disregard each and every piercing ache down to your core.

Is he even worth it?

When every single time you lost a part of you, blaming yourself for all the things you lack, doubting your own self-worth.

Is he even worth it?

Tell me as you close your eyes slowly in an attempt to hold back the tears… why is he even worth it?

You deserve someone who wouldn’t let you question anything.

You deserve someone who wouldn’t let you cry yourself to sleep.

You deserve someone who wouldn’t fail to appreciate everything in you.

Because the truth is, he’s not even worth it… none of your pain, none of your tears, not even your thoughts.