Liane White

I would have looked forward to our every ‘first’ together without ever worrying when our ‘last’ would dawn.

You tell him what you are thinking. If you are angry or upset, you tell him what’s going on instead of pretending everything is okay or hoping that he will ‘get’ it.

One day, you will be okay. You will refuse to remain chained to the thorns of the past. This heartbreak does not define you.

He no longer compliments you. It may be a new haircut or a dress he usually likes on you. He doesn’t notice or care.

A girl who is fearless in love is unapologetically herself.

“Chill. You are overreacting.”

I hate how I love you so much that I fall out of love with myself.

I cannot restrain my mind or withhold my affection. I am not okay being casual when all I want is to stake a claim on you. I am not chill. And I realize that is the last thing I want to be.

Sometimes I feel like I cannot remember a life before you. Before meeting you. Falling in love with you. Losing you. And missing you. Because missing you is all I do.

Don’t say I’m a nice girl and any guy will be lucky to have me when you don’t believe you could be him.

You are in love with the idea of him. The promises not reality. The potential not his true self. The imaginary idea that he is all you want and you will not find another like him.

If he emphasizes how he can’t see into the future and how you should just live in the present.

It is in callous words, disinterested gazes, and kisses empty of desire that I miss you the most.

In this wild reeling world, you are my only stability as I cling onto you for support.

Think of how you survived it all. And you will again.

It means that I love you so I can’t. Can’t tell you. Can’t burden you with my feelings. Because you do not feel the same way. Or maybe you used to but that love has expired. Dissolved into thin air. Faded with the passing of time.

I am a practical girl. I will not invest in something with no outcome. I will not waste my time in trying to convince you to love me.

There is a strange liberation in solitude and leading your own life. The emotions and thoughts of others no longer suffocate me. I finally get to breathe and draw calm, collected inhales and exhales feeling a deep sense of elusive peace inside me.