Lauren Jarvis-Gibson

You’re terrified to tell people about these thoughts because you don’t want them to think you would actually do any of them. 
It’s embarrassing and scary to admit that you have these thoughts that pop up in your head when you don’t believe in them. You aren’t crazy or psycho or a serial killer. It’s an illness. Get the help you need. 

Your self esteem has always been low, but as you have grown up and had relationships and breakups and heartaches, it has plummeted. You never think you’re good enough for anyone and you continually question why people even hang out with you.

I always figured by the time I would turn 21, I would feel so adult. So grown up. So put together. But to be honest, I’m 24 and I don’t feel like that at all.

It’s okay to wallow. To have a few days of doing nothing, of feeling empty. You’re allowed to be upset. You’re allowed to feel heartbroken. You’re allowed to be angry. Just because it wasn’t ever official doesn’t change the fact that there was something there. Just because it wasn’t ever official doesn’t mean you didn’t feel it. That maybe love was knocking on your door.

These guys are cowards. And they don’t deserve my strength and my vulnerability and my beauty. So I think, I’m giving up. Not forever. But for now. I’m so tired of trying so hard with little success. I’m so tired of wanting love so badly, and never even getting to the dating part.

You’re SUPPOSED to make mistakes at this age. Learn from them and grow from them. 

I can’t help this chemical imbalance. I can’t make it go away. So it’s true, I’d be a completely different person without my anxiety. I’d be brighter and shinier, like brand new shoes from DSW. I’d be so vibrant.

Don’t let your loneliness ruin you. Don’t let someone who left you, have all the power. And don’t let this feeling take control on you. It’s just a feeling. Just a moment. Just a second

The love you deserve might be lurking right around the corner at any moment of any given day.

Shopping for random shit on amazon.

Our brains are hurricanes of ‘what ifs’. Our minds are miles and miles of questions. Of unanswered messages. Of cancelations. Of suspicion. Of losing control.

Know that healing isn’t linear. Understand that you are not always going to feel great about yourself and about your life. Understand that this is normal. It’s okay to not be okay. You are human.