Lauren Jarvis-Gibson

I should have walked out after you kissed me gently and hard all at the same time. I should have walked out when I knew I was falling and when I knew you weren’t. I should have stopped myself. Because I knew better than to fall for someone like you. I knew better than to fall for players.

I experienced love for you, but most importantly love for myself after you left.

No matter what, do not ever blame them. Don’t tell them that they are weak. Don’t tell them to try harder. Don’t tell them that they aren’t working fast enough. Don’t ever blame them for how their brain works. That’s only going to add fuel to the fire.

Smile because you are surviving. And sometimes, that’s all anyone can do.

When you find a love that lasts, don’t give up. Don’t turn away when you see your partners own version of ugly. Don’t turn away from their flaws and imperfections. When you find a love that lasts, don’t expect it to be a fairytale. Don’t expect to be made up of magic. But don’t let that stop you from falling.

Don’t settle. Don’t settle even if he or she seems perfect to you on paper. Don’t settle for someone just because they are gorgeous. Don’t settle for anything less than what your gut is telling you. Don’t settle for the rich, when their hearts don’t match the amount of money they make. Don’t settle for anyone who doesn’t make your heart feel held.

Your real friends won’t sugarcoat the truth. They won’t lie to you just to make you feel better. They are going to tell you the harsh reality of any situation you find yourself in. Because they know you better than you know yourself. 

And as much as it hurts to write this, I love my life. Without you in it.

‘Anxiety is wanting to fix something that isn’t even a problem.’

Aquarius: For this sign, they are normally upbeat and cheerful. However, sometimes their depression can be triggered from feeling misunderstood and like they don’t belong anywhere. Even with their best friends, sometimes they feel like they belong in a different world. 

I want to feel the wildfire in my lungs again. I want to feel the sting of rejection and the bitterness of heartache. And then, I want to feel like I’m falling again. I want to feel the butterflies in my stomach and the beating of my heart as I lean in for a kiss and feel time stop.

You don’t know how to relax anymore or go out with friends. You convince yourself that you have to work on your days off, in order to be the best. You work day and night even on holidays and weekends. You don’t know how to stop.