I Don’t Want To Just Have Sex

I am tired of sex. I am tired of the disconnect it has become.

By Lauren Darlington

Updated 5 years ago, September 30, 2019

I don’t want to just have sex.

I don’t want to just feel used and disposed of

I don’t want to just fulfil a need and be pushed away

I don’t want to just release tension and be forgotten

I don’t want to just have sex.

I want to feel your skin on mine. Not just naked contact, really feel your skin. I want to feel the energy between our naked bodies, to feel the vibrations between us, the pure desire…no- hunger for each other.

I want to feel the intensity rising, the humanistic lust growing. I want to feel the urgency in your touch, the knowing that you must have me…now.

I want to feel your hands; your hands all over my skin.

I want you to feel the shape I take, the curves of my body, the kiss of my hips under your fingertips. I want to feel you dance, your fingers telling stories on my breasts, whispering promises I will never forget.

I want to feel the curiosity of your touch, the wandering eyes of your hands over my body.

I want to feel your body. I want to tickle my way over your surface, drawing lines on a map directing me to your soul.

I want to feel your story, feel the shape of your life, the lessons your body has taught you. I want to feel your pleasure rise, your surrendering body under my control.

I want to feel you.

I don’t want to just have sex.

I want to make love. But not in the fluffy, surface level way. I want to really make love. To connect on such a level that every sex prior is wiped clean. To become one with you. To set a new standard for all future encounters.

I want to make love with you, not just have sex.

I am tired of sex.

I am tired of the disconnect it has become.

I am tired of the meaningless exchange of two people.

I am tired of the habitual like routine it became.

I am tired of it.

So I have waited, and I’ll continue to wait, until it means more.

My body is more than a release of tension

My body is more than a ten minute toy

My body is more than an object of entertainment.

My body, and my soul, are more than this.

Sex is more than this.