I Love So Much But Show So Little

Your Ocean

I either have a case of word vomit or am unable say a thing

forever wondering
why I love so much
but show so little

I want to believe in this rush
but when my guard comes down
anxiety consumes me

reminding me I could drown
in your ocean
as if you secretly slipped me love potion

so I keep you at arm’s length
because the only loyalty I know is my own inner strength

I should know by now that when I try to avoid
I fall in deep
I never sleep

wake me up from this dream

I can’t even blink
I’ll ride this wave
until I sink