Kelly Douglas

2019, thank you for all I left behind. Thank you for the moments my heart broke as I walked away.

I’m grateful for your tenderness and empathy, a true exemplar of your beautiful soul.

It convinces me that I am alone in my thoughts and actions, that I am impossibly defective, too different to be understood.

No matter how many times you try to change yourself, you are beautiful in your own right, worthy just as you are.

I uncurl myself from the lightness, the freedom, the wholeness I felt with you, reminding myself that I am stronger without you by my side.

Some heartbreaks are meant to stimulate your personal growth. They reveal that you are not infallible, that you are human, that you have the capacity to feel and heal.

I’m working through my brain’s lack of serotonin one day at a time.

Text him. The guy who pulls you in every time you want to let go. The guy you know is wrong for you, no matter how much you wish he were right.

As I wait for You to send me a sign of Your presence, navigate me through the darkness and bring me into the light, reminding me that in Your deep love for me, You will never leave my side.

I will never unlatch my fingers from yours, soothing your deepest worries, proving that nothing can pull us apart.

The true “perfect” girls approach the world with boundless ambition, even as they feel directionless.

Maybe 23 is simply a gateway to bigger, better things, an opportunity for you to build the life you were meant for.