Kelly Douglas

Maybe, you will look in the mirror and discover that you are everything you wish you could be; stunning in your simple elegance, beautiful in your undeniable radiance.

What did I do to deserve your love, your affection, your sincerity?

I am slowly learning to let the universe lead me. Instead of brazenly thrusting myself into the life of my dreams, I am leaving my fate to the capricious will of the stars. 

It’s strange to feel like you may not fully know your own body amid its unpredictability, but if you struggle with pain, you learn to treat yourself with care and listen to your needs.

You hailed yourself as the hero, even as you remained the villain, twisting our story to romanticize yourself as the jilted lover.

I hope you learn that the beauty you seek will forever reside within you because believe me, you are beautiful.

When will I feel like beauty is for me? Will I ever see myself as beautiful?

You are my serendipity; teaching me how to let go, showing me how to live again.

Your love transcends the physical. 

I wish you could see that you are tearing me apart. I loved everything we had, everything we were, but you are pulling me away from everyone I love, creating an inoperable fissure where there should be fusion. 

This is me letting you in. This is me opening up to you, learning to trust again, letting love encapsulate my entire being. 

But today, you are supposed to be alive.