I May Not Understand God’s Plan For Me But I Still Trust Him Always

These past few days, I have been in my most stressed out moment. I have been contemplating whether everything is the way it should be for me or these bad things weren’t supposed to happen to me. I have been crying and frustrated all at once. I’ve been having emotional breakdown at the wrong places.

I don’t know but it seems that everything seems to bother and work seems so stressful these days. I have questioned my worth and my purpose to why these things are happening to me. The last time that I’m this stressed out is when I’m in college because of our thesis.

And here I am again, feeling stressed and frustrated with everything that has been going on in my life right now.

But the greatest thing about feeling down is that I know I have someone I can look up to and talk to everything. Someone who has bigger plans for me. I thank God for everything. At the end of the day, no matter how messed up my day is, I close my eyes and pray to Him that I’m still thankful for the ways He is there for me.

I may not know exactly what His plans are for me but I should trust His timing. I know that everything happens for a reason and that every stressful days and frustrated moments that I experienced now will be worth it in the end because God is with me.

I know this by heart:

God won’t give us these frustrations if He knows we can’t handle them.

I guess, for me, these are His ways of telling me and molding me to be strong. These are His ways of telling me that He has bigger plans than what I have. I know these are His ways of telling me to trust Him for He knows what is best for me. 

So yes, this is my way of telling God that I am thankful for all the ways He is making me stronger. I am thankful that no matter where I am in this world, I know He is there for me. I am thankful that I am not giving up.

And lastly, I am thankful for the plans He has for me.

One day, all of these things will be worth it and I trust you, my dear God.