An Open Letter To The Man I Love: Thank You

There are 26 letters in the alphabet but still, not all of them are enough for me to find the words of how you exactly make me feel. All I know is that the way you have loved me since day one is the way that I thought I could never be loved. So let me tell you these things:

I am sorry. I am sorry for the times when everything between us is messy and petty fights start to surface. I am sorry for the times that I am weak. I am sorry that sometimes you carry the burden of my problems for me. I am sorry for all the times that I am moody and helpless.

Thank you. Thank you for the times that even though our fights are messy, you still choose me and you still choose to love me. Thank you for being my strength when I am on my knees and can’t take everything anymore. Thank you for being my support system. Thank you for being my mood booster whenever a frown is drawn on my face.

I am sorry. I am sorry that there are times when I doubt myself. I am sorry that sometimes I choose hate and pride over love. I am sorry that there are things and feelings that I cannot control and struggle to accept everyday. I am sorry for hurting you with the words that come out of my mouth, I regret all of it.

Thank you. Thank you for always telling me that nothing in this world can ever drag me down. Thank you for always teaching me that love is always the answer to everything, that hate and pride have no place in our hearts. Thank you for not forcing me to stop struggling with my own demons. Thank you for loving me and for choosing me always, despite the roughness of the roads we take sometimes.

I couldn’t be more thankful for all the ways that you have taught me the beauty of life and the wonderfulness of love. I am thanking you for coming into my life and I am thanking God for giving me you. You are the love that I never have to question anymore. You are the love that makes me want to love myself more each day.