This Is For All The Ones Who Were Never Enough

This is for you, the one who was never enough. This is for us.

This is for the bliss you felt when you first saw him, the butterflies in your stomach. This is for that fateful day when you believed he might be the one.

This is for all the days and nights you spent together. All the cute messages you exchanged. All the good mornings, the good nights, and the in-betweens.

This is for you, the one who was never enough. This is for us.

This is for all the times you held him close to you. For all the times he took your breath away. For all the sleepless nights you spent thinking about him.

This is for all the times you drove for hours just to see him. For the times you acted like his other half. For the good times. And the bad.

This is for all the times you closed your eyes during 11:11, wishing for him. All for him.

This is for you, for us, for all the nights you spent together just looking at the stars. And how he managed to look more beautiful than the galaxy. More intoxicating than the sound of the waves. More delicate than the petals of a freshly bloomed flower.

This is for you, for the days you spent wondering where the hell he was. For the days you were down with worry. For the days when he needed you so badly that you had to quit everything you were doing just to be with him.

This is for you, the one who was never enough. This is for us.

This is for the times you were so excited to see him, only to have him text you that he couldn’t make it. For the times you believed he was really busy, or asleep. For all the lies that you still managed to swallow. This is for you.

This is for that night you found out that there was someone else. That he only saw you as a friend. Or an intimate partner to keep him company while he was searching for his perfect match.

This is for you, for the times when you were trying to suck it all in. When your hand was trembling while reading his message. For that stabbing pain in your chest.

This is for you, the one who was never enough. This is for us.

This is for all the tears you cried. For all the times you needed to go to your room because you didn’t want anyone to see how devastated you were.

This is for all the times you put on your best everything, and somehow still appeared inadequate to him.

This is for you, the one who was never enough. This is for us.

This is for you, the one who loved him more than words could say. Who patiently waited for him. To come back. To change his mind. To choose you.

This is for the times you cried yourself to sleep because you waited and he was not there. For the times you woke up with a severe headache, only for your heart to fall down into your gut when you saw that once again, he didn’t bother checking on you.

This is for all the times you wanted to still be his friend. For the times you tried desperately to compete. Only to be rejected once more.

This is for all the nights you knew they were together and you had nothing to do but listen to all the heartbreak songs and suffer in your own misery.

This is for you, for us, for the times you wallowed in self-pity. For the days you couldn’t even get up because you missed him terribly. For your heart that shattered into a million pieces.

This is for all the pictures you have kept and still look at. The only proof that you were happy. That there was life before this.

This is for all the friends who have tried to help you, to make you see past the desperation, and yet couldn’t stop you from still being blinded by the love you had for him. This is for us.

This is for you, trying to move on, trying to build a wall. This is for all the strength you have managed to somehow gather. This is for you. Just keep going. This will not be easy. But DO this for you, DO this for us, DO this for the ones who were never enough.