Holly Riordan

Your 2017 was not a failure. Your 2017 was a success because you are still alive and breathing, heart beating. You are still here after all of the bullshit that the year brought you. 

Life is too short to waste with someone who doesn’t value me. With someone who only cares about me sometimes. With someone whose version of love differs so drastically from mine. 

You need to start treating yourself with the same amount of love you have been giving everyone else.

Date someone who texts you after hanging out with you to say they had a great time and can’t wait to see you again. 

Your almost relationship was supposed to teach you that almost is not enough. Sometimes is not enough. Halfway is not enough. If someone wants to be with you, then they will put in the effort all of the time. They will commit all of the way. 

If you want a real relationship with someone, never settle for sleeping with them as just friends.

I love you because you know exactly how my mind works. You know how to explain something to me in a way that I will understand when I’m confused. You know the way that I put things together inside of my head.

Virgo: Your planning. It’s good to know where you’re going in life — but sometimes, you have to be flexible. Spontaneous. Adventurous. You have to learn to think on your feet, because not everything can be planned out months in advance. 

Why is there some unbreakable rule that says I should remain loyal to my family members no matter what they do, no matter how horribly they treat me? 

Since you’re an adult, since you aren’t a little kid anymore, no one realizes how much you are going to be impacted by what’s happening. No one realizes that you will still develop trust issues because of the divorce. They don’t realize that your own relationships are going to suffer because of the divorce.

You stare into the mirror. You look at yourself but you don’t feel like you’re looking at yourself. You can’t process the fact that the human in the mirror is you. You feel disconnected. Numb. You’re either feeling too much or nothing at all.

I want to date someone who acts like loving me is the easiest thing in the world. Someone who never makes me feel like I’m asking for too much. Someone who never makes me feel like a burden. 

There is never any closure. There is always a bit of hope.

She let you leave the house without telling her where you were going and then welcomed you with open arms when you wandered back inside.

You put in as much effort as she does. You try as hard as she does. You care as much as she does.

I am slowly learning to stop comparing my milestones. To stop questioning my worth. To stop acting like I should be somewhere I am not by now.

Love is about sitting on opposite ends of the couch, on separate laptops, and feeling completely comfortable in the silence. 

2018 is the year for self-discovery. It is the year for you to figure out what kind of person is hiding inside of you. For you to chase after your career dreams. For you to wander after your wildest ideas. For you to learn to love yourself. For you to grow into the future version of yourself.