Ezra Ellenberg

She will always exist in that hallowed space we carved out for ourselves.
Where fear was all there was, and so did not exist at all.

And feeling surrounded, value and valence were rendered irrelevant. I was it and it was me.

I think the hardest part of watching my girlfriend’s health degrade this year has been accepting radically new realities very quickly.

At times, I’ve felt completely devoid of any agency, or a reliable process by which to judge my own decisions and actions. With work being so new and my relationship constantly presenting new, rare challenges – how can I know what’s right?

Big days usually start the same.