If You Asked Me What I’m Sorry For, This Is What I’d Say

I’m sorry that I keep saying sorry.

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Jiri Wagner
Jiri Wagner

I’m sorry that I haven’t told you the truth. As time went on, I allowed the silence to grow between us and I’m sorry that you had to be a part of my dick move.

I’m sorry that I won’t allow myself to speak up and express my honest feelings for you. I can be a coward and I’m sorry for that too.

I’m sorry that this has dragged on longer than it should. It’s just that I didn’t want to lose you which is a selfish move and I’m sorry about that.

I’m sorry that my pride constantly gets in the way of us. It’s a mistake I make time and time again, and I’m sorry that I haven’t changed my old ways.

I’m sorry that I act all weird whenever we’re out on a date. I’m sure I must’ve made you think I wasn’t interested, and I’m sorry if you had to assume that.

I’m sorry that I don’t contact you as regularly as you hope. I often allow my ego to take the lead which I know I shouldn’t, but I do.. And I’m sorry if I made you feel deserted.

I’m sorry that I’m not there for you more often. My overthinking ways is a bitch and she always stops me the moment I want to hit that ‘Send’ button to see how you’re doing. I’m sorry for that too.

I’m sorry that I don’t put in more effort in giving us a chance. I kept chasing after “something great” and forgot that I had already found it in you. I’m sorry I didn’t realize that much earlier.

I’m sorry that I’m terrible at articulating how I feel. It’s wrong of me to ever think that you’d know what’s going on inside my mind thus I’m sorry for not opening up.

I’m sorry that I barely try to break down my walls. I know that by shielding my heart, I never gave you a fair chance which is something I’m also sorry about.

I’m sorry that I keep saying sorry. I really like you a lot and it scares me that I become so tongue-tied when I talk to you and when I’m with you, and I’m sorry that you have to put up with all my nonsense.

I’m sorry that it took me so long to say these things to you, but I’m glad you stuck around. I made you wait long enough and now you know the truth written on the walls of my heart, which is something I’m not sorry about. Thought Catalog Logo Mark


About the author

Cantika Rustandi

Storyteller by nature and oversharing details is my forte.