Caiti Gearsbeck

I found a therapist who diagnosed me with Borderline Personality Disorder and launched me toward a path of self-discovery.

Paranoia comes up in my life as suspicion that my friends are upset with me or that they’re conspiring behind my back. It shows itself as interpretations of facial expressions and judgmental looks that don’t always fit the facts, and it ranges to having thoughts that a stranger is going to come in through my window at night.

It’s 5:30 a.m. and I’ve been mindlessly watching YouTube videos I don’t really care about to pass the time.

I have a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder, which means that I feel emotions intensely and for extended periods of time. In my case, I am often triggered by the rejection of romantic prospects. 

You know somewhere deep inside that there’s a life worth living waiting for you out there.

It’s never easy to find that magical combination of medications when you are dealing with a mental illness. Sadly, when you are trying to navigate the world of psychiatric medications, it is going to be mainly a trial and error process.