Ashlee Valentin

You’re just afraid of being loved by someone and getting hurt.

Who I am today is a girl who has to plan a new future for herself not involving you.

The truth is that I will always love you and the fact that my heart goes with you doesn’t upset me because I always knew that if this time came, it would have been this way. 

She will love you immensely and passionately.

Having you and being loved by you would imply that I could also lose you. I don’t want to know what that would feel like, because I know that your absence would come with a lot of pain. 

As much as I enjoy hoping, I have wasted too much time wishing instead of living my life and finding someone who dreams about me in the way I’ve dreamt of you since the day we met. 

You were never good enough for me and I realize that now.

You too can take my heart and break it. You too can take every ounce of hope that I have and every ounce of light in this world that I see and turn it into sadness.  

It shames me to know that I once cared more about other’s opinions than my own.

You are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen, heard, kissed, loved… You make life easy.

James Patterson said it best: “What’s worse than knowing you want something, besides knowing you can never have it?”

If you ever felt the need to go, it would hurt, but I would suffice because the love you’ve given me is enough to last me for twelve lifetimes. 

You love the girl with long brown hair and a beautiful laugh that could stop every man in his tracks, and I can’t compete with her.

I wish you could see the way you look right before you kiss me and how at peace you look in those few seconds. I wish you knew how amazing you really are. 

I want to hide nothing from you.

Don’t give pieces of yourself, and of your heart, to people who don’t genuinely plan on loving you with every ounce of themselves. 

That’s what I am. Regretful. 

I needed you to abandon me so I could learn that the sky isn’t always beautiful shades of light blue, but also the deepest shades of black.