Ali Guerra

You will be enveloped in the chase until it becomes too exhausting to continue trying.

so you turned your hands into razor blades
and held me by my limbs at night
pretending you could save me
by cutting me open.

I took all the loveless love and sculpted twenty different lovers out of it.

I want to plant roots but I will do it gradually, I will do it for myself, and I will do it on my own terms.

You will remember adventure. The way I always talked about wanting to escape.

You are the house that is always burning
the one that I am always consumed by

You think it is love when he is protective.

I was involuntarily coerced into a culture very different from the one I was used to and forced to adapt to it, which made it really hard to stay immersed in my own.

It is easy to let ourselves believe that all of these letdowns are a reflection on us and the amount of effort we put into something, that somehow these trials of fire are just more reminders that all we do in the end is get burned.

One night you are two bodies shuffling around on the grass at midnight behind his house, and the next night he tells you he doesn’t see this going anywhere.

Wake up,
today you are not texting back your friends
even when they say
that they are filing a missing person’s report

You start to wonder why you were so afraid before. All those years, running and hiding from love were such a waste. Maybe this can be a good change.

This experience allowed me to open up and be vulnerable in front of people I didn’t know, which was something that I had always struggled with.

But this time I don’t want to run
There is something about you that makes me want to plant my feet on the ground so that they don’t act as skyrockets

Fall in love in bookstores. Fall in love on the train. Fall in love in cafés in all the different countries you’ve visited. Fall in love twice a day. Fall in love for the sake of falling in love. Remind yourself that it is just a passing fit.

I started having doubts about nearly everything. I started to wonder what it was that made humans feel complete. I wondered if there was some underlying reason I did not.

This world is enormous and magnificent, and it’s so easy to meet people in all the different parts of it. Now, even after my journey is over, I often think back to all of the things that people have said to me in the past that almost made me want to stay.

I don’t want to wait to give you my body and my heart and my mind simultaneously, because I am not the misunderstood girl who is afraid to let you in.