I’m Going To Love The Hell Out Of You

Oh she did a real number on you. I can tell every time you look at me. I can see it in your eyes when you pretend everything’s OK. But everything’s not OK. It hasn’t been alright since she destroyed the pieces of your heart that made you feel like you were worth something. But because you think you need to be strong you won’t let me in to see the real damage she caused.

But I’m me. She is her. We are two completely different people who have loved you in very different ways. While she looks at you as someone who was temporary. I look at you as my forever. So I’m not going to give up when it gets hard. I’m not going to be the person that will ever misuse your trust. She is who she is but she is not me.

I can see it in the way you say things a little too harsh sometimes. That you’re not actually talking to me but the girl before. She has done things to you that I wish I could erase. She’s put pain in your heart that I wish I could heal.

But also I don’t want to change that. As crazy as it sounds, it’s led you to me. It’s hurt you but because of that hurt we’ve ended up right here. And I wouldn’t change that for the world. Because without you, I’d never know what real love is.

Because this is love. This is what we’ve both been through heartbreak for.

The girl before me made you think that you weren’t special. That you were like every other guy. That you were easily replaceable. But you’re not. You are one of a kind. You are the puzzle piece that fits with me. And I’m so happy with you.

So that was her but this is me. I am going to be there in those dark hours when you just want to throw in the towel. I’m going to be the strength to get you back to you. I’m not going to quit on you or find someone better. Because you are the best for me. That was then but this is now. And now is so much better than then. Even if you still go back there and wonder what exactly you did wrong. Why it didn’t work out. Know that I won’t ever make you question us.

I can’t promise you perfection but I can promise you something real. Something that won’t feel like a chore. Something that won’t make you feel like you’re second. Because you’ll always be my first. My first choice. My first priority. My first real love.

But you have to trust me. You have to fully give me your heart and know that I’m not going to break it. Just like I’ve given you mine. Just like my future is with you, you have to have faith that yours is with me.

Because I’m not going anywhere.

You’re kinda stuck with me.

I’m never going to let you down. I’m not going to feel like I’m ever missing out on someone else. I’m not going to turn my back on you and tell you to kick rocks. I’m going to love everything about you that she made you feel like was unlovable.

Because she is definitely her but I am me.

And I’m going to love the fuck out of you.