Maybe Moving On Doesn’t Mean I Stop Missing You

I miss you. I miss everything you did for me. I miss the little things, the things that I didn’t notice before. I guess I took everything for granted. I took you for granted. I thought we’d have more time together. I never thought I’d lose you, but I did. I’m sorry that I pushed you away. Know that I never meant to.

I regret everything I did wrong every single day. I wish I could turn back time and make everything right by you. But that’s the funny thing with time: it only moves forward. I wish I could too; move forward and move on. Forget everything. Be happy. I guess it’s easier said than done.

How could I move on when I know that I will always be happier when you were around? How could I forget everything when you brought me so much joy in life? I guess I can’t. And maybe I shouldn’t. With you, I was completely open and vulnerable, but I always felt safe.

“Don’t cry because it’s over. Smile because it happened.” – Dr. Seuss

And maybe that’s exactly what I should do. Smile because it happened. Be happy because you happened. Maybe you were really never meant to stay. But I’ll always wish you did.

Thank you. Thank you for being there for me, even if it felt like a short time. You’ll always have a special place in my heart. No matter how far life take us, know that it’ll always be the same love.

I guess now all I have are my memories of you—memories that I’ll never want to forget. I’m not gonna pretend that it was all good, because we had our bad times too, our ups and downs. But that’s what made everything real. I miss how real it was.

I hope you know that I’m a better person because of you. Even now that you’re gone, you’re still changing my life for the better. I wish you the best and all the happiness the world has to give; you deserve it. I pray to God that He keeps you safe. Thank you for everything.