An Open Letter To The Man Who Opened Up My Heart Again

It’s only been 2 weeks, but it feels like I’ve known you for a lifetime. I would like to believe it was love at first sight, but I knew you were so much more than being just a pretty face. There was just something powerful beyond those light gray eyes that showed me the kind of hope and happiness I’ve been looking for. As I looked further, I saw the pureness of your heart, and I was changed forever.

I could finally feel my heart beating again, thumping and screaming unceasingly every time you cross my mind. There wasn’t a trace of hesitation nor doubt, I was completely all in from the get go. Call me crazy, but my soul is utterly and unapologetically in love with you.

The spontaneous road trips, sun-kissed afternoons at the beach, late night Hollywood classics marathon, spur-of-the-moment breakfasts overlooking the city, relentless talks about our hopes and dreams, warmth of your embrace, and the irresistible taste of your lips – every cliché in the book I’d gladly do all over again for and with you.

You might wonder and have reservations about my intentions and feelings, but let me just tell you that I didn’t spend half a decade healing and waiting to be with someone whom I’ll just play around with. Of course, there were bumps in the road, casual hook-ups, and never-ending first dates in between, but all those circumstances led me to you, and for that I am eternally grateful. I may not entirely know what you’re capable of, or your quirks, shortcomings, what makes you tick, and the darkest parts you dare not speak of, but somehow, I effusively trust you with every fibre of my being.

There’s just something about you that makes me want to be a better person. You teach me every day to have patience when I have to wait for you to get off from work, trust when you have to socialize out there, kindness when you randomly offer strangers your help, and to have faith in love again. All those fears of having emotions, investing in someone, and being hurt again suddenly fades when you hold me close to your heart. Just like that, all is well again with the world.

All I ask is for you to accept me wholeheartedly; my past, weaknesses, mistakes, and the whirlwind of emotions I have for you. Never in a million years have I thought that I’d feel this way again, but you make it so damn easy. I know we’re still in limbo, both cautious to put a label on whatever we have, but I want you to know that I am ready to put all of my cards on the table and bet all of my chips on you. You are the risk I am willing to take, no matter how long it takes. There’s no other person in the universe whom I’d rather spend playing the game of life with than you. After all, you and I make up the winning team.

I don’t know what the future holds for us or if we’ll ever have the chance to write another chapter, but I simply want to thank you for making me feel that I am still capable of love and being loved. That in itself is life’s ultimate blessing.

Here’s to chasing dreams and achieving milestones with you.