You Deserve All Of My Love

I might have forgotten the day we first met, but I will never forget the days that came after. How we became friends, how we would hang out in that little nook where most of our friends hang out, how I would initiate small talk when I feel that you need someone, and just how the story of us started.

I am thankful for the person who brought me closer to you, and of course I am thankful for the blessing of the Lord that has led you to me. Our story might have been the most basic – starting as strangers, becoming friends, and eventually becoming partners in crime, a couple. I am thankful for all of it. For all that we’ve gone through, I wouldn’t have it any other way. You make me feel so alive, a person who is capable of giving so much love, and a person who is willing to take care of another more than she takes care of herself.

I know this journey hasn’t been the easiest, but I want to let you know that I regret nothing. There may have been a tiny drop of regret on the mistakes that we have made, but all of it made us stronger, and I’m so glad that we are still here, fighting like hell for each other and for what we have.

I wouldn’t trade this for the world. I am making you this letter to help you remember your magic when you have somehow forgotten, to help you get through your bad days when I am away, and to always remind you how great of a person you are, and how much you and our story means to me. Thank you for choosing me. Thank you for being the genuine person that you are. I will forever be amazed at how you know about plenty of things, but loving and being kind is what you know best. I admire you so much, you have no idea.

Not just because you are my boyfriend, but I admire your strength, your will, and your determination.

I love how you are always there for anyone who needs a friend, and how everyone can so easily depend on you. I know you are the type of person who would rather deal with their issues alone and make everyone else laugh but I am telling you this now – you will never have to face your issues alone anymore, because we will deal with them together. I promise to stay to help you get through your darkest days, and to stay by your side to see the brightest of sunshines together.

You are so different – the good kind of different. So different from anyone I’ve ever known. At 21, I can safely say that you are the greatest love I’ve ever had, that I am sure. We may both get tired of ourselves and each other’s mistakes, but please always know that there will be no reason for me to ever lose my love for you.

I want you to remember that even when the whole world is against you, you will always have me.

I promise to help you build yourself up, so many people these days want a finished product, but I will stay, hold your hand, and help you hustle. I will willingly stand by your side, and help you become a more successful person. I promise to help you follow your dreams, for I will follow them with you. I promise to help you make your parents proud, because I know how much that means to you. I promise to always take care of your heart, to not break it on purpose, and to always cherish it with all that I have. You don’t know what you are capable of, but I do. I will always believe in you, in what you are capable of and in what you are made of.

I hope I am different in the same way that I find you to be; I hope I made my mark. I hope I am not like anyone from your past. I hope you see in me what I see in you. I honestly love myself when I am with you, I am a totally different person from who I was in the past and somehow, that was everything. I used to be so mad at the world, and you have helped me see the light, in every situation, in every circumstance. You have helped me control my anger and my temper, and I always knew I needed that kind of help, but I never knew it would come from you. You were my serenity, you took away the bad days.

So thank you, for everything you have done for me, for helping me become a better girlfriend, a better friend, and a better person. For taming the fire in me. I am so happy that I found my peace and my home in you. I hope you found yours in me too.

I love you, maybe a little too much, but you deserve all of it. You deserve the world, and one day – I’ll figure out how to give it to you. For now you have my mine; my world, my word, and my heart. I will forever choose you, even if forever doesn’t choose us.