What If I Told You That I Love You
What if we told each other how we feel and how we felt all along? What if we saw each other every day and held each other every night?
By Rania Naim
What if..
What if we had met in a different world, at a different time, in a different place? What if it wasn’t such a crime to hold your hands and kiss you in front of our friends? What if it wasn’t so inappropriate to tell you I love you when everyone is looking?What if we had met when you didn’t have so much going on in your life? Would you let me be part of your struggle? Would you let me go to war with you?Would you let me battle your demons alongside you?
What if..
What if we told each other how we feel and how we felt all along?
What if we saw each other every day and held each other every night?
What if we could text each other meaningless things throughout the day just to make each other smile? What if we weren’t so scared of rejection? Of hurting each other with the word ‘No.’ Would you still hold back, or will you finally tell me that it’s always been me? Would I still pretend that I don’t want more, or will I finally tell you that I never saw you as a friend?
What if..
What if I told you that I can’t be your friend? What if I told you that every time I look at you I think of home? What if I told you that I want you to be my home and I want to build a home with you? What if I found the courage to tell you that I want to marry you?
What if..
What if I stopped pretending that her presence does not annoy me? That every time she touches your skin, I go pale. That every time she kisses you, I can taste the bitterness on my tongue. That every time she whispers I love you, she breaks every single piece of my heart.
What if..
What if I told you she doesn’t love you? What if I told you she never will?
What if I told you that she doesn’t know how to love you because she doesn’t know you? What if I told you that I know you think of me every time you are with her? What if I told you I know that you miss me late at night when she’s next you?
What if..
What if we stopped missing each other when we’re with other people and just decided to be together? What if we broke all the rules and just ran away together? What if one day I woke up next to you and finally stopped thinking ‘what if?’