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The poetry was once in motion.

Now, only aging. We dream of a day when we can better dream what reality should be, and we dream and dream of a day when we can have more elaborate dreams than we do have right now. So let’s get foggy (get lose), and forget the difference between dreaming and reality — chemicaling that turns life into a projection, a hallucination of an ideal. [do you get what why I’m reaching out to you tonight,, saying hello.]

Look, I know this old school theology: but this is what haunts me, this is why I exist as terrified. I have ideals. I have visions of how I should be, and how the world should be. &yet nothing is like that. visions always fall short.

that line is a portrayal.

I dream of days when I can dream a better life for myself.

You will get sick of capitalism.

You will get sick of tribal liberalism.

You will get sick;

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The feeling is overwhelming.
The feeling is just a feeling; who cares?
(There’s no reason for me to be here in the first place.)

But I’m surprised that a person with no ultimate value beyond this life, this being as just another life form here — with no religious value

Could ever bear witness to such beauty? Such an ocean? Such a sky?

If I’m meant to just disappear; why am I here to see this explosive blue sky?

Why not show me something different? Something more boring?

So I retreat to my shell; — it’s

a msg

not supposed to go through

the system

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